Former News Anchor, Television Host and Miss Antigua and Barbuda 2007, Tasheka LaVann has been sharing her struggles with infertility.
In a recent social media post, LaVann wrote that she has been “bleeding like a horse” and “my body and spirit are over it. That’s the unfiltered truth.” LaVann, who in 2015 said she was forced to flee Antigua for Canada because of her sexuality, said that for the past five months, she has been in and out of fertility clinics and have watched her options fly out the door.
“Options I once cherished and regarded as a right for every woman, have now been taken away from me. And I am now at the road of parting ways with my precious gem – my uterus,” she said.
“I can’t lie. It’s a hard pill to swallow, but I refuse to beat myself up. I will admit though that I failed my body and spirit by not being kinder to them. My poor health choices are why I am here. I needed to value and honor my health, especially my reproductive health. I should have been monitoring those little tumors. I should have been feeding my temple enriching, healing elements and energy, but instead chose the toxic path that we as humans like to travel. I am guilty of choosing work over health and wellbeing. And I can finally admit that and ensure I do not make the same mistakes moving forward.”
While noting that she would not cry or even be angry, she explained that she is using this time in her life to teach and spread positive vibes as always.
LaVann said one of the questions she’s been asked since opening up about the issue is if she still loves her body as much as she did, knowing that she won’t be able to reproduce for a man that might want that.
“I’m choosing to answer it here because it really dawned on me just how much pressure we as women put on ourselves to feel worthy to the world, when the focus is always around our physical,” she said.
“Sistas, you are more than your vagina. We are more than these bodies. What do I mean? This body is just a safe that you care for. The real gems cannot be found on the surface. One has to dig deep to find them. Valuables that you cannot buy – Love, kindness, compassion, ambition, sacrifice…,” she wrote.
“Women who have to take the route of hysterectomy should not be made to feel that they suddenly have less to offer. I most certainly will not downgrade the value of my body because of a missing organ. My uterus doesn’t determine my value as a human being on Mother Earth. It’s a divine gift no doubt, but it is not the end of womanhood.”
In a later post, LaVann said she spent the night answering all of Momzie’s last-minute questions about fibroids, babies and hysterectomies.
“In the end, she reminded me that women have always been able to turn their pain into power. That we always find the strength to climb mountains… even with our hands tied. Fam, I really needed to hear that. Especially as I make my way to the hospital for surgery now.”